Photography, Poetry, and Writing by Philip Seidenberg

Surfing the Wave

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Surfing the wave is remaining in present time through the rising of the urge that stems from discomfort.  It is not suppressing the urge or cutting it off, it is, however, honoring the urge by holding the space of the uncomfortable feeling that the urge creates.  Instead of following the path away from the heart, into the gut, and up to the head where the urge is mentally overblown, the path of surfing the wave leads from the heart, to the gut, and back to the heart again. 

Traveling from the heart to the gut, consciousness follows the uncomfortable urge as it emerges into being out of circumstantial stimulation.  Once the emergence of the urge takes place it is important to return to the space of the heart and to be grounded firmly into the uncomfortable urge.  At this moment is the greatest overall difference between the urge taking you and you taking the urge, and the difference is conscious choice.  By being anchored into the discomfort through heartfelt consciousness, perception will not narrow as it does when dealing with the urge through mental concentration, instead perception, gratitude, and appreciation will expand.  In contrast, the urge will begin to shrink and play out its natural course of dissipation without taking hold and perpetuating a process of escapism into potentially addictive distractions.  By remaining in present time and in the heart, the path of the urge can not fully actualize into the dramatic story line directed and composed out of the head space.  Your connection to your higher self will be open and you will be present to bring the creative energy into your being that the source connection provides.

Staying Present

I find two common threads that make uncomfortable urges uncomfortable.  The first common thread is that uncomfortable urges challenge us to face a part of ourselves that is already formulated and quantified.  Our self perceptions and identity are established self practices that we typically have strong attachments to and resist changing.  Even if our behavior is negative, there is still resistance to changing the established behavior because the habit of being a certain way is familiar and comfortable. Thus, an urge that questions familiarity gives rise to the possibility of change and feels threatening.

The second thread is, we are forced to face a part of ourselves that is completely undefined.  Through this process of facing our discomforts we are willingly putting ourselves into the unknown while being fully present.   This means we are not running the opposite way of the discomfort, instead we are getting inside of it when it arises.
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Staying truly present means consciously releasing the tension of the discomfort and staying with the uncomfortable urge until it passes.  Through this process the personal comfort zone will gradually expand because you are literally conditioning your reaction to the feeling of discomfort without having to punish, devalue, argue, battle, or express hardness towards your own natural emotional responses.

Life is good.