Photography, Poetry, and Writing by Philip Seidenberg

Evolution

From the heart of a child, to the mind of a maniac searching every lost and found location on Earth for the love that illuminates all things, the light within, this line of time is my sphere, my story line, and my path from which I appear.  We receive certain dispositions programmed into our DNA by the collective choices of our ancestors.  As we gain awareness, these dispositions become our challenges to overcome in life so that we may exist  in a place of love and increasing unification, moderation, and penetrating presence of being with having to escape into any practice or external formation.  It is constant meditation in any situation, faced with smoke inhalation and bass undulation, the line of time is an evolution through beautiful ignorance to realization.  Below, is a brief but candid look at the path of my challenges towards a deeper sense of living in present tense, love, and appreciation.

Inheretence

The path from childhood to "auto-phobe" and the self fulfilling prophecy of dishonesty for the sake of self preservation

601 Run Hill

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The first understandings of love in my conscious mind, connection with animals, nature, and getting lost in competitive sports euphoria.

Time Bomb

The implosion of identity and the unknown inception of my disease.  Escape into the political pain of the world,  a place that matched my own and took me in.

Escape into the Curve

The escape from my inner pain through intercontinental traveling and creating peak experiences of extreme intimacy with beautiful female human beings....  Haha, and losing myself in every one.  The laughter is not associated with the experience, rather the release gained from the vulnerability of writing about it now and placing a weakness naked into a public space.  The shock of each loss became the search for a new escape thus creating a perpetual chain reaction of unending distractions to guard me from my internal pain.  This period of life was the peak point of ignorance surrounding my disease.

Bursting the Bubble

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Expanding my comfort zone to the realms of isolated global destinations, being on my own, and learning how to be in the flow of every moment.  Instinctual exercise, trusting myself, and the first conscious experimentation of seeing through my inner eye.  Pleasure through geographic escapism creates comfort surrounding letting myself go, yet reinforces the habit of departing amid trials and tribulations.

Meditation

The beginnings of facing my pain through introverted searching and the realization that there is no escape except for finding the strength to create conscious change.  A growing discontent with travel returns me to a place of home.

Rebellion

The hardest time of my life, facing my disease.  Allowing myself to love and be vulnerable without being well, being abruptly left, and finding the strength to rebel against the pattern.

 Body, Mind, Soul

Finding the bravery to practice being in my heart, allowing my emotions to flow and channeling my creativity.  Taking time and consciously choosing to create reality through love rather than my fear.   Trusting the universe and being at peace.  Finding my name, behaving like a child, being playful, and enjoying present time with those who cross my path.